Wow... that's all I can say. Earlier today, for some deranged reason, I started reading through my old livejournal. Starting way back in June of '01. God how shit has changed. Back then, I was boy crazy, you could slowly see who my closest friends were just through the comments and how they slowly changed around. I was more then infatuated with Forrest. Just a bunch of crazy high school drama. I actually forgot so much of what has happened these past couple years. It's so weird to look back and see how much has changed in the short amount of time it has. For awhile, a bunch of my entries were talking about how I wanted to move to Ohio and be with Aaron... lol. Wow. Well, I did it, I moved to Ohio. But I unfortunatley haven't spoken to Aaron since I've been here. It's okay though I suppose. It's weird, him and I used to be so close and know things about each other nobody else did. People said he was a loser and whatnot, but I was one of the only people who truley knew him. I'm sure he's changed like crazy by now, but still. It's kinda funny reading back through my journal... fun times at the Novi Expo center back in like Freshman or Sophmore year and the nice tale of me ripping Kyle's 20. Haha. Or when Kim, Noell and I went to see a movie and ended up almost rolling down the isle b/c we knocked each other over. lmao. Good times were had. I'm still in the middle of reading it. I'm only on like April of '03. It's weird, b/c for a long while there, I was just zoned and reading it, completley forgetting about reality and what was really going on in my life. All the entries talked about Forrest. For some time I was thinking I was actually in that time. It was so strange... That was until Nikki IMed me b/c I guess my away message went off somehow. That broke the zone... probably for the best though considering it actually made me miss Forrest. But to be honest, I do. I would just like to be friends with him at the least. I read other peoples journals everyday, and for instance, Mel and Brett are still tight and they kinda remind me of myself and Forrest. They are just fortunate enough to have remained friends. Oh well I guess. People come and go in your life and most are just there for a learning purpose. I guess that's all he was to me, a learning experience that I truley needed. And it made me open my eyes to see that I really can be a HUGE bitch sometimes. I'm not even kidding, and that makes me feel bad. Plus the way I would mention random hot guys while I was still with him. I feel guilty about that, but oh well I guess. What's done is done. It kinda sucks though b/c a huge part of me still has enormous feelings for him, that sadly, I know will never wash away. And for some reason, he's actually be on my mind ALOT latley. I can't seem to figure it out. One guy that was on American Idol reminds me of him. Plus there are all these little like, subconsious things and tiny reminders all around me. It's hard to explain, but if any of you have ever loved and lost, you'll know exactly what I mean. I'd just like to know why now? Why the sudden reminders now of all a sudden? Hrm... I have to wonder though if he ever thinks about me? Or if so, what he thinks. I am kinda sad I gave him my hippo stuffed animal. lol. I found a bunch of pictures and it was in some. And considering more then half the stuffed animals I have are from him... it's no good. Thank god those are all at my Grandpa's house. Although, when I moved, I did get rid of 2 bags of random ones. And my huge animals are at Grandpa's too. My Scooby (although Allison would probably steal it from me. haha) and my monkey that I stole from Steve. Hehe. But I do have the snowman Steve got me for Christmas last year here. Bleh... yeah, anyways. I don't know if I'll finish reading these tonight. Maybe a little more, but I don't know how much longer I'll stay awake for. I can't believe it's already 2am.
Anywho, I'll talk about my CURRENT events for now. Haven't done to much this week. Tuesday I had to be upstairs all day and wait for the UPS guy to bring my sister's new computer. Dude... they got a dell. lol. Then, Fedex brought her game. haha. After dinner yesterday we went to Walmart to look for a desk, but couldn't find one, so we went to Meijer... nothing there, so we came home and they watched American Idol, while I came down stairs and watched OTH season finale. Then back upstairs for who knows what reason... to try and help them with the computer, then down here and watched 8 mile, then went to bed.
Today, woke up. Did whatever. Ran to Kroger for my sister to grab something for dinner. Goofed around online, which is when I stumbled apon my old journal, and began reading. That is, until my mom and brother came over. She came to get him b/c he's going to Michigan for awhile to live with Bill and Sheena and escape. lmao. Meanwhile, we watched some tv. I Know What You Did Last Summer, then Freaky Friday. Then Michele got home with the kids, they made dinner... blah blah blah. My mom brought the kids some new clothes too and I asked her for money for King's Island, which I think she said she'll give me, as long as I ask my dad too. haha. We talked about Texas some too. Now I guess Eli wants to come. We'll see how that goes. Anyways, they left around 7:30 or whatever. David got home soon after they left. We all watched American Idol then I came down here and played on my computer for awhile and started reading more of my old journal. Which brings me to now.
Oh yeah... I forgot to say... My sister and, husband and the kids are going to Saginaw for the weekend, and I don't feel like going, so I think I'm gonna be coming up to Michigan this weekend. I talked to Jessie a couple times today. Trying to make plans. She said we should have some people over and chill at Meg's like we like to do. You know how we do... haha. So she called her, and then called back, so what we might do is have me to go Michigan Friday. Jessie works until 4 I think she said, so I can go later, or go earlier and see Steve and my mom (and get some money. haha) Then later, Meg wants to go to the Tech Fest, so we might do that. If anybody would like to come along, lemme know before Friday. Then Saturday, Jessie works 8-4, so I'm planning on staying at Steve's friday night, then Saturday going to Meg's with Jess and whoever else wants to go. I promised a bunch of people I'd hang with them, so we'll see. And then crash at Jessie's. Then she don't work until 3, so chill with her, then head to Steve's b/c he's off work at 11 am, so hang with him and maybe make him take me out or something lol.
Haha. I just got off the phone with Steve. He called me as he was leaving work, him and some people are at Coney. He told me James was with them, so I made him let me talk to him, but since Steve's phone sucks, and James couldn't hear me, we decided to just put Steve back on. I think I'll call James tomorrow. See what he's doing this weekend, maybe I can see him while I'm in town. I don't know, but I just found it humorous that as I was typing this they called and whatnot. I think they said James works Friday night though, which would suck, but oh well.
Hrm... well, I don't know what all to write now. I need to call Best Buy back tomorrow b/c it's been a week, and I'm sure that the GM is back. I hope so. I just don't wanna be the annoying girl who keeps calling. Specially since I'm calling Stacy and she's not the one in charge. Ugh... Okay. Well I'm gonna go back to reading some of this I think. Later! Hopefully I get to see some of you this weekend!